Fawkes is a phoenix, Harry. Phoenixes burst into flame when it is time for them to die and are reborn from the ashes.
What does it mean to be a survivor instead of a victim? I feel that I became a survivor the day I realized that I had continued to victimize myself for years after my first assault, and then found myself starting the same process over again when it happened again over a decade later.
I am by no means claiming that I am “healed” of my abuse. I know that it will affect me for the rest of my life. However, I feel that I have finally crawled out of my black hole of self-destruction into a place where I am trying to turn something horrible into something wonderful by doing what I can to inspire and help others.
Your anger is a gift.